whats on my mind

I have been home now for 11 days. and honestly i have had some good times and some bad times. I love my daughter, but since me comming back, im not so certain she loves me in return.
Little things sting my heart that she says or does. She calls me "mommy mel" and my mother "mom." when did i lose the privalege to be just mommy, she has to put my name in there too. its like my mother is higher on her pole then me. She wont sleep with me at night, instead she would rather scream and holler to sleep in the same bed as my parents. I do understand that my parents have been raising my daughter, but its like i dont matter. I know my daughter cares about me, but its like im someone she can do without. Its like if i were to die, it wouldn't take long for her to get over me, because i didn't mean that much to her to begin with.
Another thing on my mind, My relationship. I love nate, but there are things that bother me about him as well. He wants to be an entire part of my life soooo badly, that its like he is trying to rush into everything, including how to raise my daughter. She is my daughter, i will raise her how i want to raise her. He has not wrote me once while being overseas. And that hurts soooo much! Its not that he doesn't have the time, its that he is to lazy to. It feels as if he just doesn't care about me that much. He also is very set in the way he thinks. Then there are things that he just wont take imput on, may they be little or large, if he thinks someway... thats how it is going to be. no talking about it. THATS IT.
My mom sat me down the other day and was talking to me about Nate, It made me think. Is she right? or am i just believing her cuz she is my mother. I love nate and yes, we have things to work on, but nothing that we cant handle... as long as we can have good communication. I Love my mom, but at the same time, she needs to back off. She doesn't know nate as well as i do, nor has she given him a chance.
I also went running on sat around the block in brooklyn center. and i stepped into a pot hole, and the dr thinks that i tore cartalidge. i will find out more about my knee on friday when i get my MRI done. I am scared, but there isn't much i can do now.

I just have a lot on my mind right now. I just really hope you pray for me.